WooHoo!! 6weeks!! I'm so happy to see you!
One more week, and I get to see my little sweet pea!
I have not done a great job of backing off of the IF forum, but I have stopped asking Dr. Google for advice. Advice that really only makes me more nervous, and makes me look up more questions! WTH?
But I do have questions...Can I color my hair? Can I start exercising yet? When is it safe to take a bath or swim? I know my RE can answer these questions, but he isn't available at 1am, when I wake up to pee, can't get back to sleep, and begin to wonder. Dr. Google is always in. (BTW...I really hope it is ok to color my hair!!)
I noticed today that I can't button my jeans. I know it is way to early to be showing, and that it is mostly bloating from the drugs. But I look more preggo than I actually am. I managed to lose 25 pounds before starting IVF this time, and bought some skinny jeans 2 sizes smaller than before. I had really hoped to wear them a little longer. But its ok. I tried wearing the jeans unbuttoned, and they were totally uncomfortable. Looks like I am going to need some new pants. But I will wait until I see your precious heart beating!! Then, shopping for something that you can grow into. :)
One more week my sweet pea, and I will begin to tell the world that you are coming join our family! <3
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
5w6d
What in the world did our mothers do without constant access to Dr. Google??? Sometimes it's a blessing. Most times, though, I suspect it's a curse for us. For instance, did you know that abnormally high levels of HCG can indicate a molar pregnancy? Those same high levels can also be a marker for Down's. Yes, thank you Dr. Google; I feel so much more reassured now knowing that it's not written in stone that I'm carrying multiples. Well, on the flip side, they can also indicate that it's a girl or boy. Yes, I know: step away from the computer.
HCG comes in such a wide range. At 3w HCG is between 5-50, at 4w it is between 5-426, and at 5w between 18-7340. Does this mean low HCGs are good? Well, according to my RE, so long as the HCG is doubling every 48-72 hours life is good. According to Dr. Google low HCGs can be a sign of a non-viable pregnancy. I choose to believe my RE!! He is afterall a real life person.
I am trying to back away from Dr. Google (which is extreemly hard) and back away from my IF forum. I am getting so much information, and it is hard to know what is true and what isn't. Basically it all boils down to we are all different. What works for you, may not work for me. Because you had a low HCG and then m/c, doesn't mean that because I have a low HCG that I will m/c. I really need the support, but the stress of all the "what-ifs" and MrsX is talking about her m/c. Is too much for me.
My u/s is next Thursday. Only 9 days to go! I will stay off of Dr. Google!!! I will back off the IF forum. I will be happy and pray to see a little heart beating!
~~Thank you God for the opportunity to carry this blessed child. Please watch over him/her as they continue to grow.~~
HCG comes in such a wide range. At 3w HCG is between 5-50, at 4w it is between 5-426, and at 5w between 18-7340. Does this mean low HCGs are good? Well, according to my RE, so long as the HCG is doubling every 48-72 hours life is good. According to Dr. Google low HCGs can be a sign of a non-viable pregnancy. I choose to believe my RE!! He is afterall a real life person.
I am trying to back away from Dr. Google (which is extreemly hard) and back away from my IF forum. I am getting so much information, and it is hard to know what is true and what isn't. Basically it all boils down to we are all different. What works for you, may not work for me. Because you had a low HCG and then m/c, doesn't mean that because I have a low HCG that I will m/c. I really need the support, but the stress of all the "what-ifs" and MrsX is talking about her m/c. Is too much for me.
My u/s is next Thursday. Only 9 days to go! I will stay off of Dr. Google!!! I will back off the IF forum. I will be happy and pray to see a little heart beating!
~~Thank you God for the opportunity to carry this blessed child. Please watch over him/her as they continue to grow.~~
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Happy day
Yesterday I had my 3rd Beta. My number was 250. Which is a doubling time of 34 hours!! YEAH!! I am so happy!
But I am so scared, there are so many things that can still happen. UGH!! I think once I get my ultrasound on June 2nd, and see that little heart beating, I will feel much better. Right now, I am worried that now that the embryo has implanted, it isn't going to grow. Or there won't be a heartbeat.
Maybe I am too hormonal, and need to stop thinking. LOL
I was going to tell my mom, but I think I have decided to wait until the ultrasound. I just don't want to have to explain if something goes wrong. It is so much harder when people ask questions. So for now, the girls I work with, my husband, and my best friends know. That is 8 people, probably too many already.
~ Please God, watch over my little one as (s)he begins to grow. ~
But I am so scared, there are so many things that can still happen. UGH!! I think once I get my ultrasound on June 2nd, and see that little heart beating, I will feel much better. Right now, I am worried that now that the embryo has implanted, it isn't going to grow. Or there won't be a heartbeat.
Maybe I am too hormonal, and need to stop thinking. LOL
I was going to tell my mom, but I think I have decided to wait until the ultrasound. I just don't want to have to explain if something goes wrong. It is so much harder when people ask questions. So for now, the girls I work with, my husband, and my best friends know. That is 8 people, probably too many already.
~ Please God, watch over my little one as (s)he begins to grow. ~
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Hanging in there
I didn't realize how long it has been since I posted. So to catch you up...
On May 3rd, I decided to transfer 3 grade A embryos. I know there was always a chance for mulitples. But I was willing to risk that. And I'm glad I did, because of the 11 remaining embryos, we only had 8 left to freeze. But RE was concerned because they weren't growing properly, he wanted to hold them until day 6 before freeze. Well, on day 6 he called to tell me that none of them made it overnight. I had no embryos to freeze. I was so sad. And because of that, I figured this pregnancy wasn't going to work. But I continued to hope, pray, meditate, do my accupuncture and cross my fingers.
My transfer went well. 3 grade A embryos. My big hope!! The RE and Lab were running a little behind. Which I was ok with (because I had Valium). But then we got into the room, and they started pushing the sonogram wand onto my abdomen (with a full bladder). I was crying because I was so worried about peeing ont he table. Funny to think of now. Anyways, I went home, rested, and stayed in bed mostly for 3 days.
My blood test was on Friday the 13th. The RE offered to change it to the 12 if I was superstitious, but I said no. It is my lucky day. So I went in for my Friday the 13th Beta and then went to work. Not really excited, because I figured it wouldn't be positive. RE called me at about 1pm, and dang it if he didn't say I was pregnant!! My beta was low, 31.5, but pregnant none the less.
The key is to double the beta every 48-72 hours.
My second blood test was today, 47 hours later. And my beta was still low, 58. Thats a doubling time of 51 hours. Still within range. Dr. said that was a good rise. But I need a third beta on Wednesday. PLEASE double!!!
I'm not really sure what I feel. I know I am exhausted. I know I pee alot. Sometimes my stomach feels weird. But I also have been spotting a little too. No more cramping, that makes me feel better. And the heartburn comes and goes. I am still bloated. But for now, and optimistically for the next 8 months, I am pregnant. Due January 18th, 2012. Fantastic!!
7 years of hard work! Please baby come and meet your mommy, daddy and big brother!!
On May 3rd, I decided to transfer 3 grade A embryos. I know there was always a chance for mulitples. But I was willing to risk that. And I'm glad I did, because of the 11 remaining embryos, we only had 8 left to freeze. But RE was concerned because they weren't growing properly, he wanted to hold them until day 6 before freeze. Well, on day 6 he called to tell me that none of them made it overnight. I had no embryos to freeze. I was so sad. And because of that, I figured this pregnancy wasn't going to work. But I continued to hope, pray, meditate, do my accupuncture and cross my fingers.
My transfer went well. 3 grade A embryos. My big hope!! The RE and Lab were running a little behind. Which I was ok with (because I had Valium). But then we got into the room, and they started pushing the sonogram wand onto my abdomen (with a full bladder). I was crying because I was so worried about peeing ont he table. Funny to think of now. Anyways, I went home, rested, and stayed in bed mostly for 3 days.
My blood test was on Friday the 13th. The RE offered to change it to the 12 if I was superstitious, but I said no. It is my lucky day. So I went in for my Friday the 13th Beta and then went to work. Not really excited, because I figured it wouldn't be positive. RE called me at about 1pm, and dang it if he didn't say I was pregnant!! My beta was low, 31.5, but pregnant none the less.
The key is to double the beta every 48-72 hours.
My second blood test was today, 47 hours later. And my beta was still low, 58. Thats a doubling time of 51 hours. Still within range. Dr. said that was a good rise. But I need a third beta on Wednesday. PLEASE double!!!
I'm not really sure what I feel. I know I am exhausted. I know I pee alot. Sometimes my stomach feels weird. But I also have been spotting a little too. No more cramping, that makes me feel better. And the heartburn comes and goes. I am still bloated. But for now, and optimistically for the next 8 months, I am pregnant. Due January 18th, 2012. Fantastic!!
7 years of hard work! Please baby come and meet your mommy, daddy and big brother!!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Its the day
You can't imagine how I am feeling right now. I don't know if I can explain how I'm feeling right now. But I know this, I am happy, I am blessed, I am ready.
Today is my ET. As of yesterday, of my 14 embryos, all 14 continue to divide and grow. There are 6 grade A, 3 grade B, and 5 grade C. I feel so happy about this. Last time we only had 14 eggs to start with. By ET day there were 5.
My RE wants to put in 2 embies, I can't decide if I want the 3rd one in there or not. I think I may want 2 A's and 1 C. It will run the risk of triplets though. Will I be able to handle that? But I also feel that it could give me a better chance at getting twins. Crazy world has got me all confused.
So I have finished my oatmeal, I am going off to the accupuncturist, and then back home for my Valium and to begin filling my bladder. (oh fun) My appointment is at noon.
~God please watch over my embies as they are placed in the womb. Help them grow and thrive. And please give Dr. Wit a steady hand to place my babies back with me.~
Today is my ET. As of yesterday, of my 14 embryos, all 14 continue to divide and grow. There are 6 grade A, 3 grade B, and 5 grade C. I feel so happy about this. Last time we only had 14 eggs to start with. By ET day there were 5.
My RE wants to put in 2 embies, I can't decide if I want the 3rd one in there or not. I think I may want 2 A's and 1 C. It will run the risk of triplets though. Will I be able to handle that? But I also feel that it could give me a better chance at getting twins. Crazy world has got me all confused.
So I have finished my oatmeal, I am going off to the accupuncturist, and then back home for my Valium and to begin filling my bladder. (oh fun) My appointment is at noon.
~God please watch over my embies as they are placed in the womb. Help them grow and thrive. And please give Dr. Wit a steady hand to place my babies back with me.~
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